Thursday, May 6, 2010

This Stay at Home Thing

This stay at home thing is no joke sometimes.  Then again, I don't think it's ever a joke.  My husband has been out of town on business most of the week and will be gone all of next week.  I can't believe how much a half an hour of help at night actually helps.  I think a lot of it is that when my son wakes up at night I have someone that splits the duty.  We have an ongoing joke in this house that everyone needs "daddy" home to feel safe.  The thing is it's the truth!  Our dog, ever since he was a puppy has been a nervous mess everytime my husband isn't home.  It is almost like he thinks he needs to take care of everyone and can't relax.  Well, it's caught on, and now I feel exactly like that as well.  The difference is though is that I AM on duty when my husband isn't home at night.

Needless to say this momma is exhausted and craving a change of pace.  I have been a stay at home mom for 7 months straight now, and I am thinking about the future and when I will want to go back to work.  Not the best time to think about this when you have another on the way.  In the meantime I am seriously considering putting my 17 month old in some sort of nursery a few hours a few times a week.  I found this one program that we will be going to look at next week.  I am hoping to take on some work during these hours, per diem in law, to stay active in the field.  Do I feel like a failure of a mom?  Sure.  I actually sometimes feel like a failure as a person.  I couldn't manage the work full time mommy thing, and I am looking for a change after only 7 months of the stay at home mommy thing.  I am hoping to find a happy medium.

I'd love to hear your experiences!

6 comments:

  1. It is hard! I have been a SAHM for 5 months or so... an I actually thought I would have more time to get stuff done, that my house would be cleaner, that I would cook more often... yeah right! hehe.... You are definitely not alone!

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  2. No experience here. I just know I would be even more of a mess if my Hubby was out of town and I had a family to take care of alone!

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  3. Following you from FF. I have experience in this and it's something to really consider. I was a stay at home mom for the first 7 months with my first daughter. It drove me crazy as well so I got a part time job. Then somehow I got 2 part time jobs. Quit one when I found out I was pregnant again. Didn't work after the second one essentially for 7 months as well then I got a full time job opposite my husband. So he's days, I'm nights. It's really crazy but unfortunately you get used to the income. So be sure that's what you want to do before doing it.

    On the other hand, I did put my girls in a church preschool for a few hours a day, a few days a week and that's been VERY helpful for sanity.

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  4. Being SAHM is hard but there are rewards too for being there with your kids. Seeing them walk for the first time; all the milestones etc..

    Now that my kids are a little older I miss those precious days when they were babies/and toddlers.

    Thanks for the follow! Following back.

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  5. following back. Thanks for following. I feel your pain. My daughters are 2 and 5 and I have been doing the stay at home thing almost the entire 5 years. To ad insult to injury, my husband has taken a job out of town so I am single Mommying it 5 days a week. Talk about going stir crazy:) I too can't sleep when he is gone, erego my 2 am blog posts. Stay strong. Get soem sleep when Daddy's home. I am celebrating Mother's Day weekend with a healthy dose of Ambien for 3 days straight.Looking forward to reading more of your posts.
    Debi (Truthful Mommy)
    http://motherhoodthetruth.blogspot.com

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  6. Hi, I found your blog while out blog hoppin! :) super cute, became a follower!

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